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oceansoftime) wrote2012-05-07 09:17 am
oceansoftime) wrote2012-05-07 09:17 am
The Great Big Memory Write-Up From Hell (#24-31, plus skills #6-7)
(#24, Madoka Death #3: Ep. 10, significant negative; won in Cheshire's Oregon Trail game. Item: Raver candy necklace with Kunzite-colored mouse-shaped candy beads [reusable; 4/5 uses remaining])
*It's the familiar scene of flooding and devastation that the Walpurgis leaves in its wake. Homura and Madoka, both wounded and exhausted, lie side by side in a shallow pool, their Soul Gems both consumed by corruption.*
Madoka: So this is . . . the end for us too, right?
*Homura smiles sadly and nods.*
Homura: The Grief Seeds . . .
*Madoka shakes her head.*
Homura: Right . . . so how about we become monsters together . . . and turn this world upside down? So that nothing bad . . . or sad . . . would remain. Destroy, destroy, destroy it all! Don't you think that would be good?
*But then Madoka produces a Grief Seed, touching it to Homura's Gem, laughing sadly in response to Homura's shocked expression.*
Madoka: I was lying. I had one left.
Homura: That's--! Why me?!
Madoka: Because I have something to ask of you . . . something only you can do. Homura-chan, you can go back to the past, right? You said you can change history so that it won't end like this, right? Will you save me from my stupidity . . . before I got fooled by Kyuubey?
Homura: I promise! I'll save you for sure! No matter how many times I have to repeat it, I'll protect you!
Madoka: I'm glad . . .
*And then Madoka begins to feel the pain of her impending witch transformation, crying out in agony as Homura watches in horror.*
Madoka: Can I . . . ask you one more thing?
*Tears roll down Homura's face as she nods.*
Madoka: I don't want to become a witch. There were tough times . . . and sad times . . . but there are lots of things in this world that I want to protect.
Homura: Madoka!
Madoka: Homura-chan . . . you finally called me by my first name . . . I'm happy.
*Homura transforms, and draws a handgun from behind her shield. With an agonized sob, she shoots Madoka before the witch-transformation can take place.*
*And when she wakes up in the hospital post-time-rewind, her expression is twisted into an infuriated glare.*
-Fuck being a magical girl, fuck it forever +INFINITY
She learned how tostop worrying worry constantly and embrace the lineface.
This is the transformative memory, the dividing line between 8( Homura and :| Homura. Until getting this, she had been slipping into that mode occasionally when upset thanks to the influence of other lineface memories she had received; however, this really sealed the deal. Just as in canon, it was her breaking point.
(#25, I will end you!!: Ep. 8, trivial negative; won in Anansi's feast/key design game. Item: spool of spiderweb on a Kunzite-colored toothpick)
*An exhausted Sayaka has just finished a battle on an apartment building balcony. She's panting for breath, her Soul Gem dull and dark. She gasps as she hears footsteps behind her--turning around to see Homura approaching.*
Homura: Why don't you understand? You have no power to spare. Focus on killing witches.
Sayaka: Shut up. It's none of your business.
Homura: Your Soul Gem is at its limit. You must purify it right now. Use this.
*She tosses out a Grief Seed. It lands at Sayaka's feet . . . and Sayaka immediately kicks it away.*
Sayaka: What are you plotting this time?
*Homura makes a face, somewhere between startled and angry.*
Homura: Enough of that. You're in no position to suspect others, are you? Are you so against being helped?
Sayaka: I'll be a different kind of magical girl from all of you. That's what I've decided. I will not cooperate with anyone who abandons or uses others. I don't need any payment. I won't use magic just for myself.
Homura: You will die.
Sayaka: I'll only die when I can't kill witches. That'll mean I'm useless anyway. So I don't care.
*With a weak, hollow smile, Sayaka falls to her hands and knees.*
Sayaka: The world has no need for a "me" who can't kill witches.
Homura: Why? I just want to help you. Why don't you believe me?
Sayaka: I wonder why? It's because somehow, I know . . . that you're a liar. Your eyes say you've given up on everything. Everything you say is empty. You just said you're doing this for me, but I know you're thinking something completely different. You can't fool me.
*And then Homura's expression hardens . . .*
Homura: You are making Madoka suffer.
Sayaka: Madoka has nothing to do with this.
Homura: Yes, she does. This is all for her.
*As Sayaka stares in surprise at Homura's sudden sincerity, Homura transforms.*
Homura: You're very smart. You were right on the mark. I'm not doing this to help you. I don't want Madoka to see you destroying yourself. If you refuse me now, you will certainly die. If you continue to cause Madoka pain, I will kill you with my own hands right here, Miki Sayaka.
*Homura kneels, the gem on the back of her hand glowing as she reaches for Sayaka. Intent on what she's doing, she doesn't notice the footsteps racing towards her until Kyouko grabs her, pinning her arms with chains.*
Kyouko: Run! Get out of here!
*A somewhat bewildered Sayaka gives a last glance back towards the coldly glaring Homura, then picks herself up and staggers away.*
Kyouko: Are you nuts? Didn't you come to help her?
Homura: Let go.
Kyouko: Oh, I get it. You can't use that weird technique if someone grabs you like this.
*Homura says nothing, but causes something that looks an awful lot like a grenade to fall from her shield-pocket and into her hand. She pulls the pin with her teeth, and Kyouko, reacting on instinct, releases her and jumps back. Homura disappears and the explosive--actually a flashbang--goes off, flooding the area with light.*
-Fucking Sayaka >8| +9001
-B-BFF aaaaa +500
This is pretty much the peak of Homura's Troubles with Sayaka--a moment in which her frustration at Sayaka's stubbornness becomes so deep she's willing to shove her into the "ENEMIES OF MADOKA" category. Fortunately, the blow was softened somewhat by her general Aather-influenced outlook, which is overall less ruthless than her canon one. It's still . . . there, but it's not influencing her interactions with Sayaka as much as one might fear. She suspects it might have been a momentary impulse, and one she would have regretted had she gone through with it. So THANKS KYOUKO ;;
(#26, Planning with Kyouko: Ep. 8, trivial neutral; won in Unicorn's Day 117 loser game. Item: a silver pomegranate)
*Night at Homura's weird-ass apartment. She and Kyouko are sitting across from each other on couches. As Kyouko eats, Homura points to a certain spot on a satellite map of the city.*
Homura: I expect the Walpurgis to begin here.
Kyouko: How do you figure?
Homura: Statistics.
Kyouko: . . . What statistics? I've never heard of the Walpurgis Night coming to this town before. Where are you getting statistics from?
*Homura's reply: a lineface stare. Kyouko sighs.*
Kyouko: Look, we're not going to trust each other, but you have to fill me in a little bit.
Kyubey: I'd certainly like to know too, Akemi Homura.
*Kyouko levels her spear at Kyubey.*
Kyouko: How dare you show your face here, you bastard?
Kyubey: Am I an unwanted guest? But I have information I think you'll find important.
Kyouko: Huh?
Kyubey: Miki Sayaka's exhaustion is proceeding faster than expected. Not just from her use of magic--the curse is now coming from within her as well.
Kyouko: Whose fault do you think that is?
Kyubey: At this rate, something bad might happen even before the Walpurgis comes. You should be careful.
Kyouko: What's that supposed to mean?
Kyubey: You should ask her, not me. You already know, don't you, Akemi Homura?
*Homura doesn't reply, but that's enough for Kyubey.*
Kyubey: As I thought. I would love to know how you learned this. You . . .
Homura: We've heard what you had to say. Leave.
*Kyubey turns and disappears into the shadows without another word.*
Kyouko: You're letting him go?
Homura: You won't accomplish anything by killing that.
Kyouko: More importantly, what about Miki Sayaka? What's the bad thing that's supposed to happen to her?
Homura: Her Soul Gem has collected too much corruption. If it's not purified soon, she may not be able to turn back.
-Fucking Kyubey >8||| +100
-Oh no bad end incoming +100
This wasn't a very "educational" one, really, except for being another hint as to how many times she's tried to confront the Walpurgis (enough to have statistics?!!). It also hints at another bad end for Sayaka, sobbbb.
(#27, Sayaka makes a bad choice: Ep. 4, trivial negative; won in Green Knight's vehicle-building game. Item: bite-sized fruit tart)
*Sayaka has just finished her first battle as a magical girl, defeating a witch and saving Madoka from its attack! As Sayaka attempts to reassure Madoka, Homura shows up. She ain't happy.*
Homura: You're . . .
Sayaka: Hmph! You're late, transfer student.
*Homura just scowls in return.*
-Fucking Sayaka >8| +25
Sayaka is frustrating etc. etc. AGAIN, NOT MUCH INFLUENCE DUE TO AATHER-INFUSED OPTIMISM! Just an annoying memory. 8|
(#28, Ally to the calm: Ep. 6, trivial negative; won in Kiriko's Day 131 loser game. Item: Kunzite-colored wooden box [reusable; infinite uses])
*So Sayaka and Kyouko are fighting, and Sayaka is getting her ass kicked. Kyouko is lunging at her for the finishing blow . . . when all of a sudden, Sayaka is sitting several feet away, Kyouko's spear is crashing through the pavement instead of impaling anyone, and Homura is landing gracefully between them.*
*As the two turn to her in surprise, Homura executes a COOL HAIRFLIP.*
Madoka: Homura-chan . . .
Sayaka: You . . .
Kyouko: What the Hell are you doing?!
*Kyouko levels her spear at Homura . . . except Homura's mysteriously behind her already. Kyouko whirls her way again.*
Kyouko: Oh, I see. You're that "irregular." You use weird techniques . . .
Sayaka: Stay out of my way!
*Sayaka raises her sword and starts to rush at Kyouko--but then Homura's in just the right position to judo chop her to the back of the neck, knocking her out. Homura turns her attention to Kyouko as Sayaka slumps down; Kyouko, meanwhile, lowers her magical barrier, letting Madoka run to Sayaka's side.*
Madoka: Sayaka-chan!
Kyubey: Don't worry, she's just unconscious.
Kyouko: What's with you? Whose side are you on?
Homura: I'm an ally to the calm, and an enemy to idiots who fight for no reason. Which one are you, Sakura Kyouko?
*Kyouko is clearly taken aback by hearing her name from Homura.*
Kyouko: Have we met somewhere?
Homura: I wonder?
Kyouko: Well, it's not like I'm wearing a nametag. I'll be leaving for today.
Homura: That's wise.
*And Kyouko triangle-jumps the heck out.*
Madoka: You . . . saved us?
Homura: How many times must I warn you? How foolish can you be? There's no need for you to be involved in this. I've told you that repeatedly.
Madoka: I . . .
Homura: If I'm up against a fool, I'll use any means necessary.
*Madoka looks rather freaked out by the implications of that. Homura kinda leaves her to stew in it, just walkin' away without another word.*
-Ten Thousand Miles Apart +200
That she can even yell at Madoka when she's frustrated enough . . . 8( This was basically a memory that made her feel the emotional distance that her timejumpin' has created between her and Madoka, as well as her and Kyouko. It's hard, ok. It's hard and nobody understands
(#29, Will I stay like this forever?: Ep. 10, trivial negative; won in Day 131's heart games. Item: Kunzite-colored matchbook with three matches [reusable; 2/3 uses remaining])
*In the ~original timeline~, Homura is walking home from her rather unsuccessful first day at school. Madoka talking about her name--"You should act cool to match it!"--lingers in her mind.*
Homura: I can't do that . . . I can't do anything. I only cause trouble for others, and embarrass myself . . . why? Will I stay like this forever?
*And as she walks, head down, the sidewalk her eyes are focused on starts to change, its tiles becoming strange patterns reminiscent of a Picasso painting. And then, there's a voice . . .*
Witch: Then it'd be better if you just died now, wouldn't it?
Homura: Would it be better if I just died . . .
Witch: Yeah! You should just die!
Homura: If I just . . . died . . .
*Homura's eyes close, as though she were slipping into a trance--only to fly open once more as the strangeness of her situation dawns on her. When they do, she's within the witch's maze, her surroundings completely transformed into a hellish Picasso-esque nightmare. And that's where the memory ends '-'*
-M-My life +50
Basically: Oh so I was borderline suicidal I guess
thanks life
(#30, Behind in her studies: Ep. 10, trivial negative; won in Masked Lady's Dream/Nightmare/Baku game. Item: chrysanthemum wagashi)
Not much to this one; it's just a montage of her struggling with schoolwork that corresponds to episode 1's "being cool" montage.
-M-My life +25
NOT MUCH IN THIS ONE. It's basically stuff she knew from the get-go in Aather--that she was at a pretty low, awkward point in her life thanks to her illness.
(#31, Dammit Mami!: Ep. 3, trivial negative; won in Maleficent's evaluation game. Item: Kunzite-colored dessert cake)
*Mami is on one of her witch patrols, this time without Madoka and Sayaka in tow. Sensing something, she stops by a fountain in a park. Homura is There all of a sudden.*
Homura: You understand, don't you?
Mami: !
Homura: You're drawing uninvolved, normal people into something dangerous.
Mami: Those girls were chosen by Kyubey. They're not "uninvolved" any more.
Homura: You're guiding them towards becoming magical girls.
Mami: You don't find that interesting?
Homura: No. It's a bother. Particularly when it comes to Kaname Madoka.
Mami: I see. It seems you've noticed her talent too.
Homura: I can't let her make that contract.
Mami: Because someone more powerful than you would get in your way? That sounds like something a bullied child would say.
Homura: I don't want to fight you . . .
Mami: Then please try not to meet with me again. Tonight will be the last time we try to settle things through words.
*Mami turns to walk away. Homura tilts her head back, looking up at the sky with a pained expression.*
-Fucking Mami >8| +150
TALKIN' TO PEOPLE IS HARD
Basically, another frustrating "no one listens/no one gets it" memory--Mami completely misunderstands her. However, Homura doesn't try to correct her, either; in the memory, she doesn't feel it would do any good. She regrets that somewhat in hindsight.
(Skill #6, Buckler of Holding: special, won in Day 124's heart games. Item: tiny bed sculpted from sugar)
Homura's shield has a little dimensional "pocket" that can be accessed by placing things behind it. She uses it to hold weapons, mostly. In canon, its capacity is apparently all but unlimited; in Aather, it's more like a biggish backpack--no putting entire cabins (much less trucks and giant missile launchers) in it here.
(Skill #7, Energy Shield: special, won in Cheshire's card game. Item: crabapple)
Homura's shield can also generate a wider forcefield to block attacks! Pretty much all there is to it.
GOD, THERE
I'M NEVER LETTING MYSELF GET THIS BEHIND AGAIN!
*It's the familiar scene of flooding and devastation that the Walpurgis leaves in its wake. Homura and Madoka, both wounded and exhausted, lie side by side in a shallow pool, their Soul Gems both consumed by corruption.*
Madoka: So this is . . . the end for us too, right?
*Homura smiles sadly and nods.*
Homura: The Grief Seeds . . .
*Madoka shakes her head.*
Homura: Right . . . so how about we become monsters together . . . and turn this world upside down? So that nothing bad . . . or sad . . . would remain. Destroy, destroy, destroy it all! Don't you think that would be good?
*But then Madoka produces a Grief Seed, touching it to Homura's Gem, laughing sadly in response to Homura's shocked expression.*
Madoka: I was lying. I had one left.
Homura: That's--! Why me?!
Madoka: Because I have something to ask of you . . . something only you can do. Homura-chan, you can go back to the past, right? You said you can change history so that it won't end like this, right? Will you save me from my stupidity . . . before I got fooled by Kyuubey?
Homura: I promise! I'll save you for sure! No matter how many times I have to repeat it, I'll protect you!
Madoka: I'm glad . . .
*And then Madoka begins to feel the pain of her impending witch transformation, crying out in agony as Homura watches in horror.*
Madoka: Can I . . . ask you one more thing?
*Tears roll down Homura's face as she nods.*
Madoka: I don't want to become a witch. There were tough times . . . and sad times . . . but there are lots of things in this world that I want to protect.
Homura: Madoka!
Madoka: Homura-chan . . . you finally called me by my first name . . . I'm happy.
*Homura transforms, and draws a handgun from behind her shield. With an agonized sob, she shoots Madoka before the witch-transformation can take place.*
*And when she wakes up in the hospital post-time-rewind, her expression is twisted into an infuriated glare.*
-Fuck being a magical girl, fuck it forever +INFINITY
She learned how to
This is the transformative memory, the dividing line between 8( Homura and :| Homura. Until getting this, she had been slipping into that mode occasionally when upset thanks to the influence of other lineface memories she had received; however, this really sealed the deal. Just as in canon, it was her breaking point.
(#25, I will end you!!: Ep. 8, trivial negative; won in Anansi's feast/key design game. Item: spool of spiderweb on a Kunzite-colored toothpick)
*An exhausted Sayaka has just finished a battle on an apartment building balcony. She's panting for breath, her Soul Gem dull and dark. She gasps as she hears footsteps behind her--turning around to see Homura approaching.*
Homura: Why don't you understand? You have no power to spare. Focus on killing witches.
Sayaka: Shut up. It's none of your business.
Homura: Your Soul Gem is at its limit. You must purify it right now. Use this.
*She tosses out a Grief Seed. It lands at Sayaka's feet . . . and Sayaka immediately kicks it away.*
Sayaka: What are you plotting this time?
*Homura makes a face, somewhere between startled and angry.*
Homura: Enough of that. You're in no position to suspect others, are you? Are you so against being helped?
Sayaka: I'll be a different kind of magical girl from all of you. That's what I've decided. I will not cooperate with anyone who abandons or uses others. I don't need any payment. I won't use magic just for myself.
Homura: You will die.
Sayaka: I'll only die when I can't kill witches. That'll mean I'm useless anyway. So I don't care.
*With a weak, hollow smile, Sayaka falls to her hands and knees.*
Sayaka: The world has no need for a "me" who can't kill witches.
Homura: Why? I just want to help you. Why don't you believe me?
Sayaka: I wonder why? It's because somehow, I know . . . that you're a liar. Your eyes say you've given up on everything. Everything you say is empty. You just said you're doing this for me, but I know you're thinking something completely different. You can't fool me.
*And then Homura's expression hardens . . .*
Homura: You are making Madoka suffer.
Sayaka: Madoka has nothing to do with this.
Homura: Yes, she does. This is all for her.
*As Sayaka stares in surprise at Homura's sudden sincerity, Homura transforms.*
Homura: You're very smart. You were right on the mark. I'm not doing this to help you. I don't want Madoka to see you destroying yourself. If you refuse me now, you will certainly die. If you continue to cause Madoka pain, I will kill you with my own hands right here, Miki Sayaka.
*Homura kneels, the gem on the back of her hand glowing as she reaches for Sayaka. Intent on what she's doing, she doesn't notice the footsteps racing towards her until Kyouko grabs her, pinning her arms with chains.*
Kyouko: Run! Get out of here!
*A somewhat bewildered Sayaka gives a last glance back towards the coldly glaring Homura, then picks herself up and staggers away.*
Kyouko: Are you nuts? Didn't you come to help her?
Homura: Let go.
Kyouko: Oh, I get it. You can't use that weird technique if someone grabs you like this.
*Homura says nothing, but causes something that looks an awful lot like a grenade to fall from her shield-pocket and into her hand. She pulls the pin with her teeth, and Kyouko, reacting on instinct, releases her and jumps back. Homura disappears and the explosive--actually a flashbang--goes off, flooding the area with light.*
-Fucking Sayaka >8| +9001
-B-BFF aaaaa +500
This is pretty much the peak of Homura's Troubles with Sayaka--a moment in which her frustration at Sayaka's stubbornness becomes so deep she's willing to shove her into the "ENEMIES OF MADOKA" category. Fortunately, the blow was softened somewhat by her general Aather-influenced outlook, which is overall less ruthless than her canon one. It's still . . . there, but it's not influencing her interactions with Sayaka as much as one might fear. She suspects it might have been a momentary impulse, and one she would have regretted had she gone through with it. So THANKS KYOUKO ;;
(#26, Planning with Kyouko: Ep. 8, trivial neutral; won in Unicorn's Day 117 loser game. Item: a silver pomegranate)
*Night at Homura's weird-ass apartment. She and Kyouko are sitting across from each other on couches. As Kyouko eats, Homura points to a certain spot on a satellite map of the city.*
Homura: I expect the Walpurgis to begin here.
Kyouko: How do you figure?
Homura: Statistics.
Kyouko: . . . What statistics? I've never heard of the Walpurgis Night coming to this town before. Where are you getting statistics from?
*Homura's reply: a lineface stare. Kyouko sighs.*
Kyouko: Look, we're not going to trust each other, but you have to fill me in a little bit.
Kyubey: I'd certainly like to know too, Akemi Homura.
*Kyouko levels her spear at Kyubey.*
Kyouko: How dare you show your face here, you bastard?
Kyubey: Am I an unwanted guest? But I have information I think you'll find important.
Kyouko: Huh?
Kyubey: Miki Sayaka's exhaustion is proceeding faster than expected. Not just from her use of magic--the curse is now coming from within her as well.
Kyouko: Whose fault do you think that is?
Kyubey: At this rate, something bad might happen even before the Walpurgis comes. You should be careful.
Kyouko: What's that supposed to mean?
Kyubey: You should ask her, not me. You already know, don't you, Akemi Homura?
*Homura doesn't reply, but that's enough for Kyubey.*
Kyubey: As I thought. I would love to know how you learned this. You . . .
Homura: We've heard what you had to say. Leave.
*Kyubey turns and disappears into the shadows without another word.*
Kyouko: You're letting him go?
Homura: You won't accomplish anything by killing that.
Kyouko: More importantly, what about Miki Sayaka? What's the bad thing that's supposed to happen to her?
Homura: Her Soul Gem has collected too much corruption. If it's not purified soon, she may not be able to turn back.
-Fucking Kyubey >8||| +100
-Oh no bad end incoming +100
This wasn't a very "educational" one, really, except for being another hint as to how many times she's tried to confront the Walpurgis (enough to have statistics?!!). It also hints at another bad end for Sayaka, sobbbb.
(#27, Sayaka makes a bad choice: Ep. 4, trivial negative; won in Green Knight's vehicle-building game. Item: bite-sized fruit tart)
*Sayaka has just finished her first battle as a magical girl, defeating a witch and saving Madoka from its attack! As Sayaka attempts to reassure Madoka, Homura shows up. She ain't happy.*
Homura: You're . . .
Sayaka: Hmph! You're late, transfer student.
*Homura just scowls in return.*
-Fucking Sayaka >8| +25
Sayaka is frustrating etc. etc. AGAIN, NOT MUCH INFLUENCE DUE TO AATHER-INFUSED OPTIMISM! Just an annoying memory. 8|
(#28, Ally to the calm: Ep. 6, trivial negative; won in Kiriko's Day 131 loser game. Item: Kunzite-colored wooden box [reusable; infinite uses])
*So Sayaka and Kyouko are fighting, and Sayaka is getting her ass kicked. Kyouko is lunging at her for the finishing blow . . . when all of a sudden, Sayaka is sitting several feet away, Kyouko's spear is crashing through the pavement instead of impaling anyone, and Homura is landing gracefully between them.*
*As the two turn to her in surprise, Homura executes a COOL HAIRFLIP.*
Madoka: Homura-chan . . .
Sayaka: You . . .
Kyouko: What the Hell are you doing?!
*Kyouko levels her spear at Homura . . . except Homura's mysteriously behind her already. Kyouko whirls her way again.*
Kyouko: Oh, I see. You're that "irregular." You use weird techniques . . .
Sayaka: Stay out of my way!
*Sayaka raises her sword and starts to rush at Kyouko--but then Homura's in just the right position to judo chop her to the back of the neck, knocking her out. Homura turns her attention to Kyouko as Sayaka slumps down; Kyouko, meanwhile, lowers her magical barrier, letting Madoka run to Sayaka's side.*
Madoka: Sayaka-chan!
Kyubey: Don't worry, she's just unconscious.
Kyouko: What's with you? Whose side are you on?
Homura: I'm an ally to the calm, and an enemy to idiots who fight for no reason. Which one are you, Sakura Kyouko?
*Kyouko is clearly taken aback by hearing her name from Homura.*
Kyouko: Have we met somewhere?
Homura: I wonder?
Kyouko: Well, it's not like I'm wearing a nametag. I'll be leaving for today.
Homura: That's wise.
*And Kyouko triangle-jumps the heck out.*
Madoka: You . . . saved us?
Homura: How many times must I warn you? How foolish can you be? There's no need for you to be involved in this. I've told you that repeatedly.
Madoka: I . . .
Homura: If I'm up against a fool, I'll use any means necessary.
*Madoka looks rather freaked out by the implications of that. Homura kinda leaves her to stew in it, just walkin' away without another word.*
-Ten Thousand Miles Apart +200
That she can even yell at Madoka when she's frustrated enough . . . 8( This was basically a memory that made her feel the emotional distance that her timejumpin' has created between her and Madoka, as well as her and Kyouko. It's hard, ok. It's hard and nobody understands
(#29, Will I stay like this forever?: Ep. 10, trivial negative; won in Day 131's heart games. Item: Kunzite-colored matchbook with three matches [reusable; 2/3 uses remaining])
*In the ~original timeline~, Homura is walking home from her rather unsuccessful first day at school. Madoka talking about her name--"You should act cool to match it!"--lingers in her mind.*
Homura: I can't do that . . . I can't do anything. I only cause trouble for others, and embarrass myself . . . why? Will I stay like this forever?
*And as she walks, head down, the sidewalk her eyes are focused on starts to change, its tiles becoming strange patterns reminiscent of a Picasso painting. And then, there's a voice . . .*
Witch: Then it'd be better if you just died now, wouldn't it?
Homura: Would it be better if I just died . . .
Witch: Yeah! You should just die!
Homura: If I just . . . died . . .
*Homura's eyes close, as though she were slipping into a trance--only to fly open once more as the strangeness of her situation dawns on her. When they do, she's within the witch's maze, her surroundings completely transformed into a hellish Picasso-esque nightmare. And that's where the memory ends '-'*
-M-My life +50
Basically: Oh so I was borderline suicidal I guess
thanks life
(#30, Behind in her studies: Ep. 10, trivial negative; won in Masked Lady's Dream/Nightmare/Baku game. Item: chrysanthemum wagashi)
Not much to this one; it's just a montage of her struggling with schoolwork that corresponds to episode 1's "being cool" montage.
-M-My life +25
NOT MUCH IN THIS ONE. It's basically stuff she knew from the get-go in Aather--that she was at a pretty low, awkward point in her life thanks to her illness.
(#31, Dammit Mami!: Ep. 3, trivial negative; won in Maleficent's evaluation game. Item: Kunzite-colored dessert cake)
*Mami is on one of her witch patrols, this time without Madoka and Sayaka in tow. Sensing something, she stops by a fountain in a park. Homura is There all of a sudden.*
Homura: You understand, don't you?
Mami: !
Homura: You're drawing uninvolved, normal people into something dangerous.
Mami: Those girls were chosen by Kyubey. They're not "uninvolved" any more.
Homura: You're guiding them towards becoming magical girls.
Mami: You don't find that interesting?
Homura: No. It's a bother. Particularly when it comes to Kaname Madoka.
Mami: I see. It seems you've noticed her talent too.
Homura: I can't let her make that contract.
Mami: Because someone more powerful than you would get in your way? That sounds like something a bullied child would say.
Homura: I don't want to fight you . . .
Mami: Then please try not to meet with me again. Tonight will be the last time we try to settle things through words.
*Mami turns to walk away. Homura tilts her head back, looking up at the sky with a pained expression.*
-Fucking Mami >8| +150
TALKIN' TO PEOPLE IS HARD
Basically, another frustrating "no one listens/no one gets it" memory--Mami completely misunderstands her. However, Homura doesn't try to correct her, either; in the memory, she doesn't feel it would do any good. She regrets that somewhat in hindsight.
(Skill #6, Buckler of Holding: special, won in Day 124's heart games. Item: tiny bed sculpted from sugar)
Homura's shield has a little dimensional "pocket" that can be accessed by placing things behind it. She uses it to hold weapons, mostly. In canon, its capacity is apparently all but unlimited; in Aather, it's more like a biggish backpack--no putting entire cabins (much less trucks and giant missile launchers) in it here.
(Skill #7, Energy Shield: special, won in Cheshire's card game. Item: crabapple)
Homura's shield can also generate a wider forcefield to block attacks! Pretty much all there is to it.
GOD, THERE
I'M NEVER LETTING MYSELF GET THIS BEHIND AGAIN!